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The Update

It’s been years.

Joking. (Well kind of).

I didn’t stop writing. In fact, if anything, I’ve written more in this past year than I ever have.

It just never made it to the blog.

I’m not entirely sure why, though I do have my suspicions.

Much of what I wrote so much about was deeply personal. All things I wouldn’t share on a public blog.

Another sizable chunk was spent writing for work. Work-writing is fulfilling for me but also doesn’t translate well to blog-space.

And of course, my other short stories and anecdotes and general mayhem made it to my writing classes, or Facebook, or didn’t get written at all because I was so very busy and tired and didn’t feel like it or…

But, as always, I missed this.

No promises this time. I don’t know whether I’ll update in a day or a month or ever again. But it feels different this time. I feel different. I think my last two years have played a major role in that.

Anyway, it’s good to be back.



Done moving + new schedule + the window of darkness


I am in a new location. Physically, anyway (bloggy’s still in the same place, don’t worry). Sorry for the lack of postage lately but moving+school starting+working a graveyard shift = not a lot of time to create wondrous blog content.


Not menacing at all.

My new place is smaller and cheaper (woot) with the added bonus of being right down the street from my school, which means I can walk everyday and save gas money (once again: woot). But my favorite part by far has to be my bedroom window (see picture at left) which for some reason unbeknownst to logic and the sanity of architects everywhere, allows me a scenic view of our darkened garage.

My initial theory was that the window originally did look outside when the house was much smaller, and that it was covered up when the owners decided to add on a garage. However, my housemates (who have lived their much longer than I) told me that the window was in fact a recent addition, only added in the last year, when the garage was already in place.

This begs the question: why did the owner feel the need to include this? Did he/she believe the room needed a little something “extra”? Did they simply enjoy the darkened window aesthetic? Perhaps they supposed the usual pangs of claustrophobia would be assuaged by the promise of an escape, even if that escape only led to another darkened hole of existential despair.

We may never know.

On the upside, the window is directly above the washer and dryer, so I can check the state of my clothes without walking all the way around the house, which is nice.

In other news, school’s off to a rip-roaring start. I have realized however that my weekday schedule allows very little room for anything other than sleep, work, and school (not necessarily in that order) so you can expect most bloggy updates to occur on the weekends (like this one).

If you’re in the US, enjoy your Labor Day weekend. Everyone else: enjoy your regular/(insert local celebration here) weekend!

Back in Black (or an orange striped t-shirt)

A smattering selection of my current journal collection.

A smattering selection of my current journal collection.

What can I say?

That this year was crazy?

It was.

That my life has changed in ways I never thought possible?

It has.

That I’m back after almost a year, to romp and roam amongst the pixilated pages of this blog once more?

I am.

I know we left off abruptly. I moved, my life picked up speed and momentum and, for a while, it became easier to not.

To not write. To not speak. To not even check up on poor bloggy. Later, it was easier to to not because it’s what I was already doing.

Besides, sometimes it felt like the writing area of my life wasn’t going anywhere.

It was easier to ignore when the other parts of my life were flourishing. I got accepted into the school I’d always dreamed of attending. I moved to another state to attend and within a month had made dozens of new friends. School began and changed my life. I became intensely ill (not so fun) but through the process learned that I could depend on my new friends, my family, and God more than ever. I got an awesome job at a TV station, and within four months was promoted to a better-paying position that utilized my college degree.

Now, that’s not to say this past year was only filled with peach cream and roses. (And seriously, what’s with peach cream metaphors anyway?) The aforementioned sickness wiped out a month of my life and replaced it with pure pain. There were lengthy, anxiety-inducing struggles with finances (especially after I got out of the hospital) and at times I was certain I’d be crushed in the heart-seizing hands of fear. Homework abounded. My awesome job was (and is) an overnight shift, meaning once I started I saw considerably less of my awesome friends. And so on.

However, rather than swamping all the good parts, the bad sections complemented them, allowing the sweet to stand out against a harsh backdrop. (This is in retrospect of course. In the midst of the difficult times, I was considerably less eloquent and level-headed).

In short, this year was everything I’d hoped for, with two exceptions:

  1. I wish my best friend could have experienced it with me. (Alas, she’s off becoming a doctor or some nonsense like that).
  2. I wish I had written more.

The last one kind of sneaked up on me.

Amidst the whirl of my new life, something had to give way. And it was far easier to remove something I was unsure about–something that I had to go after myself that wasn’t in my face demanding my attention everyday–than it was to set aside time.

It helped, of course, that I was burned out from the slew of endless, pointless essays one is expected to churn out in college (especially as an English major).

Whatever the case, I stopped, and in the overwhelming rush that has been this past year, I never took the time to examine what fruit that decision had wrought in my life.

Then came summer. Life slowed down. School was out, the demands on my life lightened. And something was missing.

I tried to go back, in my myriad of notebooks, and find the missing piece. That’s when I realized how little I had written down. There were lots of notes for school. The occasional pages written in the aftermath of a soul-wrenching life change. But other than that, there wasn’t much. I didn’t even update my Facebook that much (not really sorry about that one).

But slowly, over the last few weeks, I’ve started writing again. After nearly a year, getting back into the swing of things is taking longer than I hoped, but no longer than expected. The blog’s going back up. I’ve started back in on my fiction and nonfiction stories. Facebook even got updated.

This blog has, and likely will always be, an experiment and a practice session for a life I’ve always wanted and one I’m steadily working towards.

And after nearly a year, I think it’s time to jump back in.

I’m Alive

. . .but busy. Sorry, guys. I’ve got one more week to go before I’m graduated and moved and it seems like things are flying at a million miles an hour right now.

Thanks for hanging in there.


All Moved In + An Announcement

I’m finally unpacked!

Mostly. Kind of.

The first week of school was a bit hectic (as first weeks tend to be) but not too bad. I’m in a couple film classes this term which, due to the fact that

a) I’m fascinated by film and

b) have never taken any film classes before

look like they’re going to be a tremendous amount of fun.

Also new this year is my ACTUAL job at the college radio station (88.7 FM KBVR Corvallis in case you’re interested) which is paying me ACTUAL money in exchange for me doing the things I love.

To say I’m excited would be an impressively erroneous understatement.

However this means that on my hierarchy of STUFF TO DO even more things will be placed above blogging and, as such, I’ll be cutting some of my fun projects back a bit, at least for the time being.

Now, I’m not placing the entire blog on hiatus (because that’s incredibly boring and, to tell you the truth, I’m still trying to make up for that dismal August postage. Two posts for the whole month? Seriously, I.C.?) but I AM placing a certain feature of the blog on hiatus.

Said feature is, as you probably guessed, SUE GAMES which will resume promptly on the first Tuesday of the new year.

There are several other reasons besides le job for the mini-hiatus which are:

1) The less free time I have the worse the quality and the punctuality of the updates: i.e. I don’t really want to continue updating if what I’m producing isn’t up to my own standards.

2) We are almost exactly halfway through the Sue adventures, making this an excellent pausing place.

3) I have several other projects I’d like to devote more time to for the next couple months.

4) I’m planning on participating in NaNoWriMo this year so the entire month of November was just going to be word count updates coupled with ridiculously attractive pictures of the Avengers anyway. . .

So yeah. Tiny hiatus llama for you:

Hiatus Llamasuegames

Stick around for regular blog postage but if you’re only here for Sue Games, I’ll see you in January!

Almost Six Whole Days Without a Post!

Sorry. School picked up for finals so right now I’m pretty much like:

Time to write a blog post–OOOOO shiny thing!

So expect a lot of nonsensical photos and overused memes while my brain gears smoke and clatter in an attempt to come up with some content for y’all.


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